Gold mine

After try to find new hobbies on campus or try to play some sports I used to play back home. It just wasn't the same no one around me played the same sports and the hobbies I thought of died off. The idea of fishing came up many times but were would I purchase everything and i had no transportation to get around to lakes or rivers. Until one day after class me and my girlfriend were walking on campus at CSU stanislaus right in front of the science building there is a pretty big pond where we saw a large mouth bass around 2lbs and 15 inchs long. Later that night I came back around 10:00pm and caught 3 bass all around 2-3lbs and 5lb catfish. which was very surprising the fact that I was using a drop shot which imitates a minnow in the water. As I caught more and more fish I was so surprised that there were so many giant fish in a pretty small pond. but It was literally made for me, I now have my favorite hobby 3 minutes away from me all day. And having it so close made it very easy, on our breaks during the day I teach my girlfriend how to cast because she knows how to fight the fish. so far in the pond we caught around 8 big bass 1 huge catfish and acouple bluegill. hopefully theres a monster bass and i can soon beat my personal best record of a 4 lbs bass!

Tunnel vision

After falling in to somewhat of depression and anxiety over school I realized that I was making myself feel that way. I was procrastinating and finding things to do besides my work and when It came to the last minute I was freaking out and was overwhelming myself. After listening to a song called tunnel vision by Kodak black, explaining this struggle and his time spent in prison when he should be working towards his goals in life. I thought to myself this is unacceptable I'm an adult now and if I keep my behavior up I would put myself In a huge hole. what I do in the next couple of years will either benefit or negatively affect my future. where I'm from you either went to college, got a job or started selling drugs and i definitely know what category I will one day succeed in. This doesn't mean i'm not going to have fun or go out, but manage my time and priorities. "my MAMA told me,"boy make a decision", right now I gotta keep a tunnel vision. Work now play later or else or you gonna have  fun now and try to catch up to where everyone else is at. The amount of freedom was really something a had to control because i really was never on my own. But as an adult and student I had to learn and change my way of living so that I can that myself in a few years, shout out KB for setting me back on my tracks down this tunnel

Socializing

Within the first couple weeks as a freshmen at CSU Stanislaus I knew I wasn't going to make a lot of friends. because they either were either into different things or just didn't come across friendly. For my entire first semester I meet around 10 friends and only stayed between those group of friends. After that semester I realized how hard it was to be a student and not talk to anyone for example when I would receive work from a teacher and didn't fully understand I would ask a teacher for help but sometimes the response would take awhile. one day I was so confused and frustrated on what I needed to accomplish, My roommate asked why don't I text someone from my class for help. But me being my antisocial self didn't have anyone's number. As the second semester started I really tried and put myself out there to meet new people. within the first couple of days I had actually peers who would contact me strictly to get work done. Also being a student and not socializing left me with no friends beside the 10 I originally meet and my girlfriend. Now I see friends on a daily around campus I made a few friends in every class and no longer have to face boredom or frustration with my work. even though some my look different,weird or whatever, you never really know the person until you meet them and personally get to know them. Never judge a book by its cover

Over Whelming

As a student from the bay area my high school professors always talked about how fun college is and how much we will learn, and all the new people we would meet. My teachers also talked about what we want to do for the rest of our lives and what best fits our career. Being a freshmen opened my eyes to how fast life really is. After having multiple meeting with tutors and academic advisers, it seemed like I should have choose what I wanted to be in live before I came to college and now that i'm in college I have to start working towards my goal. Which really confused me because the way it seemed was that there isn't time to explore and see what I really want to do in life. college made it seem like I should have choose what I wanted to do in life in high school, and from my  high school perspective It was more of waiting for college to see and explore new things. What teachers did say was very common is when people decide to change there major which makes sense when you get to learn about new things and are in an environment where everyone networks and  learn new majors. Although I have a focus point, I always keep an open mind and are willing to try new things.

Adapting To My Environment

As a new student at Stan state meeting new people wasn't on my list to do. I had a few friends from my high school I came with to this school so I figured I would just hangout with them. But what I didn't realize was we didn't have the same classes anymore and friends started to drop out which at first intimidated me thinking I wasn't going to make it. But there was more to there situation than just school which lead them to drop out. I then was stuck with my girl friend and a handful of friends who I rarely got to see all because I wanted to be antisocial. After my first semester I learned that college Is a place to network with other people, a place to talk to different types of people and how to work together. Although I would love to live under a rock, But in order to live in society today I need to be able to communicate and be able to know how to talk to others in any situation. I was literally avoiding everyone and when it came to group projects I seen how easy it was to get work done when communicating. Communication is one of the most important things in college either talking to your peers, teachers and mentors Allowing you to ask when things are do, if you need help on something, or not understanding a subject. Also by communicating with my teachers it has saved my grades because I didn't get what I had to do but with a quick email i was informed and helped with my work. Communicating allows us to work around obstacles, inform and to make my job easier. Dont take me wrong though I’d still rather live under a rock!

Change

Being a freshmen away from home really opened my eyes to what I missed around me. Starting off at a new school wasn't a problem but as I got used to the area I started feeling depressed. From a city with over a million people of all ethnicity to a mainly Caucasian area. I used to love to visit all my friends in San Jose from all over the city. A positive that I did notice dramatically is that I could where whatever I wanted with out being checked on the streets or being stared at for the colors i'm wearing. Living in San Jose was paradise compared to Turlock. I was close to the hills, ocean, shopping malls, friends/family etc. It started to grow on me, I could no longer go hiking,fishing, mall,friends. It was just work,work,work. I tried to hangout with guys who lived on and off campus and noticed a pattern. everyone I hangout with drank and smoked so much!!!!!!!!!!! There was literally nothing better to do but get high and play video games and finish school work. After awhile of that it left me sick and too the point where I had to sit and talk to my friends ,and talk to them about changing there habits. Although I miss home more than anything Im starting to bring home here. where ever and when ever i have the chance to fish,hike or play sports with friends. I could trap myself off of others bad habits